It’s funny really. It’s funny when you think of where you are and how you got there. While I was going through my bachelor’s degree in business, I longed to go to school for fitness and nutrition but I was too close to graduation to switch. Afterward, I did not pursue because I was burnt out and could not see a way to get there. Everything seemed so impossible.
I held on to my dreams, but left them to the back of my mind. “One day…” or “maybe in another lifetime…” were echoing through my thoughts when I would attempt to dream about it all. As I got closer to some supportive friends, I began to realize that it was okay to be a mom and still have dreams. In fact, you need them. They need you to need them. Your kids need to see you nurturing them, supporting them, loving them, AND setting the example by striving for your own dreams! How can we tell them that they can be anything they want to be in life while we quiet our own dreams?!?!
When I took a step out in fear with my personal training certification, I felt like I was screwing up every step of the way. I was completely out of my comfort zone. I did not look how I imagined personal trainers should look. I dragged my feet to complete the course. I was my biggest obstacle yet again.
After I received my certification, I started working at Onslow Fitness in Jacksonville, North Carolina. I am forever thankful for the lessons learned there and the people I worked with. They taught me so much about myself and how I belong in this industry. And friend, it was not just the people that worked there that grew me. Little did my clients know but I think they grew me more than anyone else. They would give me constant feedback and share parts of their lives with me. The “personal” piece to personal trainer… I was made for that!
Leaving Jacksonville broke me. I had a job I loved doing something that I felt called to do. I had a framily that were the people on every emergency and pick-up list. I had a house I loved and running trails that soothed my soul. I had a volunteer position in Semper Fi Fund and in Stroller Warriors Running Club. I was finally where I wanted to be, but it apparently was not where He wanted me to be.
Five months after the move, I have completed my first semester of my master’s degree and readying to begin the next. In this time, I have changed. I have realized that it is time to shed the old to make room for the new. This is me BLOOMING finally.
Out with the old…
And in with the new…
Thank you for being on this journey with me! Thank you for being a witness to the transformation from a fearful, scarred girl into a wonderfully and fearfully made woman! Thank you for providing me with the means to BLOOM!
I wish you all of this. I wish that you feel the way I do when I see my path ahead. I wish you to feel like you were made for this because you need to. At least one time in your life. You need to believe in you first because I already believe in you.